Puppy..

Well, I got me a new dog.  Well a puppy really.  My dog needed a buddy.. like bad.  I've come to realize my dogs problem.  When she was 6 mo's old, kids tied her up to a pole and cut the shit out of her.  Stabbed her... required stitches.  Fast forward 2 years, and she's great..  She does very well with me and the kid.. kinda protective.. which is cool.  But here's the deal.  If she is "tied up", and people come around, she goes APE SHIT.  Seriously, acts like she wants to rip their heads, hands, arms, legs off.  No joke.  BUT.  If I don't have her tied up, I can have people over in the backyard, and she's great.  Licks them to death..  Poor dog.

Anyway, so I got another dog.  Another Pit to be exact...  she's Beautiful, and 7 months old, and just awesome..  She follows me everywhere, without a leash... BUT she's getting a little more comfortable with her surroundings and keeps going a little further and a little further..  gotta stop that one. :D  

So, at first, my dog thought new dog was coming to take over.. so she body checked her and slammed her until she hid.  Mind you they are the same size.. like 40 lbs..  Had the older dog on a leash just so I could pull her away from puppy quickly. After a couple hours of this I undid the leash and followed them around the yard...  What a work out!!!

Anyway, after a bit, they started to get a long great... ok, for the MOST part LOL.  They played for hours and hours... puppy slept UNDER my bed and older dog prolly slept in the kids room on her bed where she ain't supposed to be.  

After a couple days of this, you'd think they'd get along... well, like I said, for the most part.  Old dog still gets pissy if puppy comes and hangs out by me too long, or too close and just yells at her and runs her off.. 

Damn Dogs.

Moving..

Finally moved... ok, well almost.. I mean, got all the "required" stuff in the new house just so we can "live" there.. Now, it's just multiple trips to finish getting the "rest" of my shit... Have a bunch of stuff for decorating that I just don't want anymore, so I traded stuff with a friend of mine who is giving me a couple Miller Lite Neon signs to put in my garage along with some racing shit too... Gotta have a cool garage.. Oh ya.. and the pool table is goin in there.. Drinkin' and driving sucks sooooo bad, so might as well make the pad a little more enjoyable. :D ya I know.. I'm a dork.
The dog is rather enjoying the new place.. I think she really likes grass!! HAHA The yard was sooo small at the old place, so she's in heaven now... she prances around the yard and hops like a rabbit.. pyscho dog. The kid is lovin the new place too... ONE STORY!!! woo hoo.. no more stairs for my poor knees.. I bought a new bedding set and the kid ALWAYS wants what I have... so... I found one on sale (GREAT PRICE BTW) for her Full size bed. It's made by JEEP and it is similar colors to my set, so she'll be happy. I told her no more Camouflage in her room.. BUT, to surprise her, the sheet set it comes with is like dirt camo (light, and simple) with boot prints all over it.. Works very well for my little Tomboy.. ;)
I've gotten soooo much done already, so I'm pretty happy.. have some more things to do... the area rugs showed up yesterday, so those will be all done by tonight... (of course that's if I don't get any beer on the way home today ;) )
Anyway, hope ya'll are doing well... I'm doing GREAT... (which is a nice change) Cheers!

It's all good..

So, I sold my house... and now I am in the process of moving.. Was hoping to get the keys sooner than I did, but that didn't happen, alas, I have them now, and am starting the process.. I have decided that since I have some time to do it, I am going to move gradually, rather than cram everything into 2 days. This way, I can actually put things in their right places as I go, which will make it even smoother.. I am very excited about it now.. I spent yesterday and last night cleaning it all.. and replacing things that just needed to be done. It's a really nice feeling. I had a beer in the backyard last night by myself and just enjoyed the peace and quiet.. then couldn't sleep because I couldn't shut my mind off thinking about where I want to put everything, then changing it in my head over and over.. haha Anyway, been busy packing etc, so haven't been around much. I'll be back once I get moved and settled in. Til then, Peace.

Ho Hum..

Do you ever find days... or multiple days where everything is just "blah". Not for any particular reason, it just is. Like crying but not really about anything. Or just when nothing in your life seems to be better than just "blah". I seem to go in cycles. And right now I'm in it. Not for any particular reason I don't think. At least I'm not sure of. I mean, my house is damn near sold.. waiting for Escrow to open, so that is a GREAT thing for me. Can finally get back to having a savings account again.. I'm as healthy as I can be, I suppose, so that's good.. The Kid is awesome, and that is just super. Yet, I'm still blah. I think my absolute WORST quality as a human being is that I procrastinate everything. I know that I have a condition that makes me tired all the time, but I seem to use that as an excuse. That sucks. But I really AM tired all the time. I KNOW what I need to start doing in order to make my life better, but I am not doing it. I can't seem to find the motivation to do so on a daily basis. Kinda like working out. I NEED to do that too, but when we get home, there's homework, and laundry etc... so I find something ELSE to do rather than what I need to do.
The fact that I recognize this behavior SHOULD make it easier maybe to know that I need to get off my ass and do something productive. I WANT to.. I really do. I just can't force myself to do it.
Hence, "Ho Hum" or just "Blah".
What to do? What can I do to light a HUGE MASSIVE fire under my butt to get things done and get my life in order!?!?
I bought this great bracelet that is called a Mobius Strip and it has the Serenity prayer on it. People have asked me why I am wearing an AA bracelet. (Which for me, that is kinda funny, altho I have been to AA and I am not knocking it by any means, I'm just not wearing it for that purpose). I am wearing this bracelet, because every single morning I get out of bed I HAVE to ask for the Serenity to "Accept the things I can not change". That is sooo important to me right now. I want to control everything, and when I can't, I get pissed. Really pissed. So, I want to learn how to 1. accept what I have no control over, and 2. BE OK WITH IT. That is just one part of the serenity prayer. That is the only part I am working on ME for right now. The rest, will come once I can get thru the first part I think.
Anyway.. until next time.

Where have I been??

It's been awhile... Things have been busy like usual.. So, I sold my house.. Well, I accepted an offer.. So now gotta wait for escrow to open and start packing. Been looking closer to work for a HOUSE to rent, found a couple, so need to check those out. Been going to Arizona a couple times to check out schools and economy out there, and in some areas, not so good. O well.
Need to seriously get to work on side work for websites or something, so that I can start making some decent money. I would like to move and not have to work, besides on my computer, and be with the Kid before and after school... I know.. Keep dreamin'. I'm gonna try tho damn it!!
So, anyway, that's about it.. been working on some projects for the kids class, like makin volcanos and dinosaurs (stegosaurus) out of clay... Kinda fun. She's learning how to write a report taking FACTS from the computer, and making it into her own words.. I was trying to explain plagiarism to her, and she started to get so upset thinking all the information she got was Plagiarizing. I explained it all to her, and what the difference is... she felt much better... Man, she rocks.
So, she really wants to move, but I have a couple hurdles to jump in order to do that, so I'm trying to be realistic, and say it will be at least 6 months before we can move outta here. It's cool... I can hang a little while longer.. Success isn't easy to achieve, if it were, we'd all be rich.
Hope everyone is doing well! Peace!
"Success means having the courage, the determination, and the will to become the person you believe you were meant to be"

People Suck..

I'm tired. I'm tired of doing everything I can for people and trying to help, only to get what in return? Nada. Zilch. Nothing. People Suck. I don't do things EXPECTING something in return, but when a time comes when I need some help or "something".. it would be nice if everyone didn't have to get a root canal on that very same day. Not cool. Seems no one appreciates Friends anymore. It's sad really. And people that "supposedly" care about you, wow, I am AMAZED how these same people can just drop you like nothing, in order to do things to please themselves, and not give a SHIT about anyone else or anyone elses feelings. Pretty fucked up and shitty if you ask me. I'm completely annoyed by people these last couple weeks, therefore had nothing good to write about.
I will say this tho. There are few people that I know in my life, who can out of no where, not know what I am personally going thru, can say something to me that for a while, makes everything "OK". My brother did that for me. He doesn't know it tho. I can honestly say right now, I am an equal opportunity hater. I don't like anyone more or any less. Pretty shitty I know. But right now, that's how it is. Yesterday was one day good, or bad. Tomorrow will be another, who knows what kind of shit will happen then.
Anyhow, my brother calls me one night, I was sleeping. He had been drinking, and just called to tell me out of the blue how much he misses me and loves me and that I mean the world to him. Those were HIS words. Talk about something NICE from someone who has no idea what that means. It was really nice. With me and my brother, drinking and heartfelt conversations, go hand in hand. That is basically the ONLY time we can say what we REALLY feel. He's like me and hides his feelings about a lot of things.
Well, he one upped himself. He called me a couple nights later, again I was asleep, and said "Hey.. I haven't been drinking this time (insert hearty chuckle) and I wanted to tell you sober, what I told you the other day. I do really miss you. Very much and I love you so much, and "the kid" too. Anyway, just wanted you to know".
My brother ROCKS. Plain and simple.
I put my house up for sale. I fully intend to leave the state in the next year. Looking to decide what I am going to do for a living in order to leave. The kid is SOOO excited to move out of state. As am I. Anyway.. that's where I am right now... pretty shitty, but still ok.