Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Groovin' & Shakin'..

So, I'm sure everyone knows by now, we had a pretty big jolt today... A nice 5.4 earthquake.  I was at work, and I thought a semi truck slammed into the office.  Most of the office pretty much hauled ass to get out of the building while it was rolling...  I have been thru the Northridge quake, and the whittier narrows quake in 87, and multiple more smaller quakes, all of my life.  I can honestly say, they really don't bother me much.  My chair at my desk started rolling around, and my monitor fell over as well.  I just kinda sat there and held on to the desk just waiting it out.  
I did get up just before it was over to talk to another worker in the office (she and I were the only ones who didn't "run" out).   Then, evacuated the building to make sure everything was safe to come in.  Kinda messy.  Ceiling tiles fell, many monitors fell too.  I think some things in the plant weren't right because most of the plant workers left for the day shortly after.  The phone lines in the building were down for a bit, and EVERYONES cell phones wouldn't work.  I know most was due to literally millions of people trying to call each other, but also, AT&T/Cingular did have issues due to the quake.  That made it really difficult for me, as I couldn't get a hold of the kid.  I was more stressed about talking to her than of the quake itself!
Alas, I did find out she was ok and actually helped out at daycare with the younger kids to keep them calm..  She is such a cool kid.  Love Her!
Oh, and I heard that a friend of mine was giving birth right about the same time.  Can you imagine?!?! 
Anyway, so that's about it for the earthquake.  I am actually in the epicenter of it.  Literally.  So it really was kinda cool.  :)  And, besides that event, nothing much happening lately..  Just enjoying the kid and chillin'. 

Peace..... 

Friday, July 25, 2008

Reminiscing..

So today I went back to read some of the first posts that I made... it's been a year.  WOW.  I have actually stuck with something for an entire year...  THAT kids, is a very nice accomplishment for me.  I procrastinate.. like sooo bad.  In just about every aspect of my life.  I admit, I am not the best at "finishing" ALL of the things I start either.  (ok, that sucked to admit that out loud.. ) So, the fact that I am still doing this for a whole year, gives me a little hope.  I do have ONE single, no wait TWO goals that I need to get moving on...  I have soo many ideas for one of them, but in order to get to work on that one, I need to accomplish a different goal first.   I've talked about it before, and yes, I am STILL procrastinating.. UGH, this is depressing.  Ok, so shit, I've GOT TO DO SOMETHING.  I need to get off my ass and do this shit already!!  I am so content with my life right now, I'm L~A~Z~Y.  I hate lazy.. 
If ANYONE has any suggestions (besides Tony Robins) on what I can do/think to get more MOTIVATED, I'm all ears... 
Oh, I found a bunch of books that I had packed away of poetry that I have written over the years.. like over the last 17 or so years..  Reading thru some of it, I laughed like loud at how juvenile and high school some of them sound...  It was rather comforting...  I'll probably post some of it up here in the next week or so.. 
Peace.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Keep moving..

Wow.  Things are starting to calm down some.  I just got back from going to the east coast for my grandfathers funeral.  I spent a LOT of time with my immediate family.  There are reasons we all don't get along together.  Too many, but I digress.  It felt like a very long trip.  We killed Bambi.  I know they do a LOT of hunting out there, but we did it with the rental car.  Hit a deer.  No idea where it came from, but it was the BIGGEST deer I have EVER seen.  
Like really knocked the crap out of it... it was all over the side of the car.  Really sucked.  Had to drive a pretty much wrecked rental car to the funeral.  
Anyway.. the funeral.  It was really nice... they had a military portion of it, and they played Taps... and shot guns etc...  it was cool.  Saw a LOT of family that I hadn't seen for about 9 years since my grandma passed away.  Been a long time.   
My computer crashed last week, and just today do I have any sort of semblance back to it.  I lost everything... All my pictures over the last year, everything.  :(  Kinda sad, but there are more important things to be upset about.  (Killed a deer!!)  So, it's a fresh start now.
The Kid has been gone on vacation and I have been out of town, so I am just beside myself with excitement... she comes back to me tonight.  
There is no one more important in the world to me right now that her.  She is my life.  My everything.

A daughter is the happy memories of the past, the joyful moments of the present, and the hope and promise of the future. ~Author Unknown




Friday, July 11, 2008

"Pop"..

Today is a sad day.  My "Pop" died last night..  I've mentioned before that life is too short... We all too often take for granted people in our lives.  I remember when my grandmother died... one of the (if not MOST) difficult times of my life.  Growing up, I was always with my grandparents.  They lived right behind my folks..  Every weekend we would go over to their house to eat breakfast.  Not just any breakfast..  I'm talkin "COUNTRY" breakfast.. Fried eggs, fried apples, biscuits, fried potatoes, the BEST gravy you could EVER imagine.  Oh, forgot jimmy dean sausage patties and tons of bacon..  This is what I had every weekend..  (damn no wonder I'm so LARGE!! HAHA)  Anyway, some other feasts they would make were things like chicken ortega, one of my favorites:  Chicken n Dumplins..  Homemade dumplins.. Wow.. that was soo good.  After breakfast, all us grandkids would go climb in their bed and watch Little Rascals..  Saturdays were good. :D
Pop also had his garden.  Tomatoes, cabbage, cucumbers..all kinds of stuff in there.  And they "canned" most of it.  Sour Kraut was big.. and Pickles.. I can remember the taste like yesterday..  
After my grandmother died, Pop stayed in the house for a while, but then decided to sell it.  Dunno who lives there now, but the house looks nice.   
He stayed with my aunt for a long time.. and we'd all visit..  my dad would go and hang out with him a couple nights a week.  Then he went to a "home" to live (too difficult for my aunt anymore) where there were other "older people"..   He had a great time making fun of them.. He was pretty ornery.  (ok, and could be a little mean).  
I got a call yesterday that he wasn't doing too hot. So they moved him to a nursing home. Dr's said he had about 48 hours to live... I guess Pop was in a hurry to leave because he fell into a coma shortly after and died a couple hours later. Ya, he was ready.
Here's where I am saddened.  I was always so busy with MY life to go spend more time with him.  Me and the Kid always had something going on, and didn't MAKE the time.  We did see him quite a bit, but my heart doesn't feel it was enough.  I did speak to him on the phone, but again, not enough.  
We aren't here forever.  That is a fact.  I need to start making the important things count.  Make TIME for what is important.  I hope one day Pop will forgive me.

"5 Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. 6 Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever. "  Excerpt from 23rd Psalm

Monday, July 7, 2008

Puppy..

Well, I got me a new dog.  Well a puppy really.  My dog needed a buddy.. like bad.  I've come to realize my dogs problem.  When she was 6 mo's old, kids tied her up to a pole and cut the shit out of her.  Stabbed her... required stitches.  Fast forward 2 years, and she's great..  She does very well with me and the kid.. kinda protective.. which is cool.  But here's the deal.  If she is "tied up", and people come around, she goes APE SHIT.  Seriously, acts like she wants to rip their heads, hands, arms, legs off.  No joke.  BUT.  If I don't have her tied up, I can have people over in the backyard, and she's great.  Licks them to death..  Poor dog.
Anyway, so I got another dog.  Another Pit to be exact...  she's Beautiful, and 7 months old, and just awesome..  She follows me everywhere, without a leash... BUT she's getting a little more comfortable with her surroundings and keeps going a little further and a little further..  gotta stop that one. :D  
So, at first, my dog thought new dog was coming to take over.. so she body checked her and slammed her until she hid.  Mind you they are the same size.. like 40 lbs..  Had the older dog on a leash just so I could pull her away from puppy quickly. After a couple hours of this I undid the leash and followed them around the yard...  What a work out!!!
Anyway, after a bit, they started to get a long great... ok, for the MOST part LOL.  They played for hours and hours... puppy slept UNDER my bed and older dog prolly slept in the kids room on her bed where she ain't supposed to be.  
After a couple days of this, you'd think they'd get along... well, like I said, for the most part.  Old dog still gets pissy if puppy comes and hangs out by me too long, or too close and just yells at her and runs her off.. 
Damn Dogs.